i'm reli overwhelmed.... first.. i passed my entrance examination in La Salle and i'm qualified for the scholarship... i hope i'll get it too.. i'm very surprised with the results for i thought i'll never make it for my math test have gone worst.... well thank god i passed the test....

another thing Chris Raahauge is online today.. but he's not talking to me... well i'll try my best to get his attention. i'm also relieve that nothing happened to him... (whew!) well i'm going the prepare some things today for it's new year's eve.. YEY! Bye for now till next...

At last! I came home from my Christmas vacation that lasted for 4 days and I've missed everything; my computer, chatting, my online friends and etc. We reached Manila by 4am and I'm suffering ffrom a serious headache ryt now... Well as usual, i'm flirting with someone again her name is Inah. I've decided giving up my efforts on courting Jaja for I alredi lack  interest in her...

well, i'm pissed for pao ruiz keeps on ignoring me after  telling him that I like him (w/c is a part of my big joke on him.. LOL) But actually i'm having fun after all of this flirting stuff i'm doing ryt now... ha ha ha

It's Saturday and I have attented our MTAP class. Thank God, it is the last day of it. Well, everything seems to be normal. Nothing extraordinary happened to me and i'm tired having days with nothing to do....

Christmas is coming and i need to buy clothes for me to wear on our Christmas Party on Tuesday. I alredi had bought a gift for my "baby" and i hope she'll like it (or else, i'll kill her.. LOL). This day is too exhausting for me though i didn't do too much work besides malling and listening to our math teacher.

I hope it's alredi vacation now, for i'm too excited on spending it in our province because Christmas is different there (not mentioning the loads of food and gifts waiting for me there... )

I have nothing more to say.... till next...

Who will ever guess that the "thing" that made us all torn apart wud also bring us back together again.. that the actual cause of the rift in our friendship will also find it's way to fix the damaged friendship...

Well today is a happy day for me, for the reason that though the day pressured me too much, i can consider it as my best day this week.. after a week of depression.. uneasy mind and sleepless nights thinking watever happened to Chris.. at least i have realized that it's not love wat i feel from him... im just so desperate to have a friend (hu is a boy) and i have reacted too much on his actions toward me....

I'm reli glad that everything had returned to normal and we've solve the "rivalry"  between  the sections without sacrificing anything ( i mean the relationship with them).. everything is going good except my relationship with Chris.. and i'll write him an e-mail for the very last time tomorrow... and if he'll not answer it, den i know we're not meant to be.. even as friends...

It's hard to accept and forget all the things about him but i'll try... i'm going to concentrate more on my Taekwondo career so that my mind is not focused on him... and i hope i'll find someone who will act as a substitute for him (or anyone who can mend a heart)... someone a lot better... i need to move on.. and i don't wanna waste my days weeping with someone who doesn't like me.. and hu just ignore me after all d' good memories i have shared with him...

Well that's all for today...

All i want is a word from him... no more, no less...

This may sound absurd but his absence made me insane, for he made a big impact on me.. I never take relationships seriously, but this time... parting from him, had tortured me that it feels like stabbing me inside and out...

I dunno but.. i know i do love Chris.. and it's being hypocrite not to admit that damn fact... Hu cares if i'm a bi?.. as long as i have him... i don't care... But how am i suppose to do it now.. now that he's gone... why do these things have to happen... wen everything seems like going on the right track... i dont know.. i don't have any idea at all...

Before, i set my mind not believe that LOVE still exist for the pain i've got from a past relationship is unbearable... but when Chris came... he made me believe to that stupid thing again... but wer am i now? waiting.. and desperately waiting and almost dying for ages... because i don't know wat the hell happen to him...

All i want is to hear from him again.. i hope i never told him that i do love him.. that i'm fallin for him.. for he is different.. a lot different... for he always makes me feel special..

I want to hear from him soon... i miss every part of him... and i know i can't stand it when i lose him.... weird but true...